agh... SO close to tasting summer =]
One more day of reg. class... then back to cascade to take home a car-load of my stuff (I have NO IDEA where all this extra JUNK came from... it only took TWO carloads to get it here, and so far its taken two to bring home and thats not even half!)
I'm supposed to head to sami's birthday party (I decided I couldn't be THAT big of a bitch to miss her BIRTHDAY party) .... however, I'm catching a nasty cold... HOPEFULLY ITS NOT THE SWINE FLU! ;) ... and I have a TERRIBLE eye infection, and the docs told me to STAY AWAY from any sort of smoke...
WELL THAT IS JUST SWELL because any party that sami is to ever throw involves massive MASSIVE amounts of cigarette smoke! its unbearable to deal with NORMALLY, but having an EYE INFECTION on top of being SICK... that just takes the cake... and I REALLY don't want to have to miss out on finals
thats my luck, ladies and gents! lol... so I've decided that I'm going to make an APPEARANCE... hopefully she's not too offended by that, but it IS Sami... you never know how she will react.
speaking of luck...
here's a FUN one... lol
so on Sunday, the Tornado sirens went off.... WHILE I WAS IN THE SHOWER!!! and guess what? LAURA COULDN'T HEAR THEM, because some girls who were listening to the radio in the bathroom felt it necessary to turn the radio volume ALL the way up to hear the warning on the radio, eliminating ANY sound from anywhere else in the building because when they left, they just left the radio turned all the way up
SO I finish my shower, walk out into the hallway... finding it odd that its EXTRA quiet, and when i get to my room ryan is standing right next to the door waiting for me....
GRR I was so mad... then i just decided to stay up in my room because the sirens were no longer going off.
but I'm JUST SAYIN... maybe people should check the bathrooms when the sirens go off... like OH I don't know the RA?!?!?!?!?!
she hates me, she'd probably just let me die anyway, lol.
Anyways... I REALLY should get back to my homework... Only two papers left to write for the year.... and for some reason i'm having HUGE issues summing up the motivation to write them....
<3
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
rah! I forgot all about blogging... I've been uber busy!
I'm extra exhausted... I've had so much homework today, I never have a break!
saw carol gilligan speak today... very intersting. It felt amazing to be in the presence of such an influential person. Makes me aspire to achieve what she has in psychology, though its doubtful.
Got in another fight with sami. More and more it seems like its hard to stay friends with someone like her... I've moved forward so much, and she seems to not move at all, which is sad. Its hard to watch such a good friend throw their life away, she focuses on that instant gratification, not on future consequences... maybe one day she'll learn. She's academically even smarter than me, if she'd only apply her skills and have a little ambition she could go places...
we can only hope.
But I can't afford to surround myself with that anymore, it makes me feel so sad for them... no matter what I say she doesn't listen, she'll always do her own thing.
I know she hears me and it all sinks in... she just doesn't want to let go of her pride.
maybe when I have my PhD she'll take me seriously;) haha.
I just can't wait to get to that point in my life where I can help people like her succeed, I'll always be chasing that satisfaction, she'll always be in the back of my mind.
The most rewarding feeling for me is creating a positive change in someone's life, or giving them the skills, knowledge, and that extra push to turn their lives around...
however its always a little bittersweet when she has these moments of breakdown... it sounds terrible but not having to deal with her for a while is nice, her life is one big world of stress... I think my blood pressure rises when I have to deal with her, haha. But her being my last source of adolescent drama, its nice to not have to hear about it for a while... as terrible as that sounds.
I'm not a bad friend, I swear... haha.
but it wouldn't be right of me to support her bad decisions, she knows that... somewhere inside of her I KNOW she knows that. she's really not as dumb as she likes to come off.
anyway... thats the current dramz.... there's really much more going on, but quite frankly I'm a little tired and its nice to vent on the negative =] but the positive far outweights in my life these days.... I am blessed!
until my next blurrrb. I'm off to get ready to go out! only two more weekends left!!!
<3
I'm extra exhausted... I've had so much homework today, I never have a break!
saw carol gilligan speak today... very intersting. It felt amazing to be in the presence of such an influential person. Makes me aspire to achieve what she has in psychology, though its doubtful.
Got in another fight with sami. More and more it seems like its hard to stay friends with someone like her... I've moved forward so much, and she seems to not move at all, which is sad. Its hard to watch such a good friend throw their life away, she focuses on that instant gratification, not on future consequences... maybe one day she'll learn. She's academically even smarter than me, if she'd only apply her skills and have a little ambition she could go places...
we can only hope.
But I can't afford to surround myself with that anymore, it makes me feel so sad for them... no matter what I say she doesn't listen, she'll always do her own thing.
I know she hears me and it all sinks in... she just doesn't want to let go of her pride.
maybe when I have my PhD she'll take me seriously;) haha.
I just can't wait to get to that point in my life where I can help people like her succeed, I'll always be chasing that satisfaction, she'll always be in the back of my mind.
The most rewarding feeling for me is creating a positive change in someone's life, or giving them the skills, knowledge, and that extra push to turn their lives around...
however its always a little bittersweet when she has these moments of breakdown... it sounds terrible but not having to deal with her for a while is nice, her life is one big world of stress... I think my blood pressure rises when I have to deal with her, haha. But her being my last source of adolescent drama, its nice to not have to hear about it for a while... as terrible as that sounds.
I'm not a bad friend, I swear... haha.
but it wouldn't be right of me to support her bad decisions, she knows that... somewhere inside of her I KNOW she knows that. she's really not as dumb as she likes to come off.
anyway... thats the current dramz.... there's really much more going on, but quite frankly I'm a little tired and its nice to vent on the negative =] but the positive far outweights in my life these days.... I am blessed!
until my next blurrrb. I'm off to get ready to go out! only two more weekends left!!!
<3
Thursday, March 26, 2009
ah... the art of procrastination.
actually... I'm not procrastinating TOO bad... I only have one more source I have to enter into el annotated bib. ...but my dumb ass left the thousand zillion paged article for last! grrrr.
I discovered my love for spark notes today. I'm truly madly in love.
and lazy.
=]
This weekend is going to be a blast, I'm extra excited! I had fun and all during spring break... but after you've been going out dancing at the clubs n bars, house parties just don't seem to cut the cake anymore :/ hehe.
so I'm PUMPED!
that and andy and leighann are SUPPOSED to be coming up. But andy is one of those people that you can't really be sure if he'll show up until the last second... SO FRUSTERATING.
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Last night I COULD NOT fall asleep because all I could think about is what I'm going to wear this weekend... I think I have a problem!
my stupid black boots that I wanted SO bad fell apart at the clubs last time, and the majority of my "going out" clothing is black-themed. annoyyyying.
but the PROBLEM is... I HAVE NO MONEY TO BUY ANYTHING NEW.
I HATE NOT HAVING MONEY!
!!!!!!
it's left me very stressed out.
as you can tell!
and I feel awful about mooching off of ryan so much....
but then again when I think about it... he went a good year and a half pretty well mooching off of MY ass.
so maybe I shouldn't feel so bad about it... after all... he IS the "pants" of the relationship. Or supposed to be...
hah.
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I also really hate dieting...
but I promised myself I would after spring break because I ate SOOO much junk!
I'm trying to cut carbs... but LAURA LOVES HER CARBS. Its really hard.
and lately I haven't been able to get the the gym cuz I've been so bogged down with homework, I have probably 5 to 10 minutes of free time at the most these days.
I'm just really hoping that I'll shed it off during may when I leave school.
freshman 15? Um, try freshman TWENTY FIVE.
somethin's gotta change...
I just wish I didn't LOOOVE food so much.
I'm destined to be a fatty forever =[
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that's all folks. I gotta get readin my last article so I can finally finish the bib.
LUH.
YEW.
I discovered my love for spark notes today. I'm truly madly in love.
and lazy.
=]
This weekend is going to be a blast, I'm extra excited! I had fun and all during spring break... but after you've been going out dancing at the clubs n bars, house parties just don't seem to cut the cake anymore :/ hehe.
so I'm PUMPED!
that and andy and leighann are SUPPOSED to be coming up. But andy is one of those people that you can't really be sure if he'll show up until the last second... SO FRUSTERATING.
----
Last night I COULD NOT fall asleep because all I could think about is what I'm going to wear this weekend... I think I have a problem!
my stupid black boots that I wanted SO bad fell apart at the clubs last time, and the majority of my "going out" clothing is black-themed. annoyyyying.
but the PROBLEM is... I HAVE NO MONEY TO BUY ANYTHING NEW.
I HATE NOT HAVING MONEY!
!!!!!!
it's left me very stressed out.
as you can tell!
and I feel awful about mooching off of ryan so much....
but then again when I think about it... he went a good year and a half pretty well mooching off of MY ass.
so maybe I shouldn't feel so bad about it... after all... he IS the "pants" of the relationship. Or supposed to be...
hah.
-----
I also really hate dieting...
but I promised myself I would after spring break because I ate SOOO much junk!
I'm trying to cut carbs... but LAURA LOVES HER CARBS. Its really hard.
and lately I haven't been able to get the the gym cuz I've been so bogged down with homework, I have probably 5 to 10 minutes of free time at the most these days.
I'm just really hoping that I'll shed it off during may when I leave school.
freshman 15? Um, try freshman TWENTY FIVE.
somethin's gotta change...
I just wish I didn't LOOOVE food so much.
I'm destined to be a fatty forever =[
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that's all folks. I gotta get readin my last article so I can finally finish the bib.
LUH.
YEW.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Two down One to go on the Bib.
I really hate annotated bibliographies... did I spell that right? anyway.... they're extra gay, and I really wish I would have started mine earlier. Seems like the nearing of summer has caused me to start procrastinating... I just don't understand why we have to write this long drawn out bibliography... who honestly CARES!!! Can't I just get my damn ten paged paper out of the way?
whatever. lame. I'm done for now... I'll finish after science lab (I hope!)
in addition to all that stuff though... I have a take home test due on friday (shouldn't be TOOOO bad), a test in American Civ... which I'm getting a little afraid of... I Aced the first one, but I haven't been as on top of things as usual, who KNOWS whats going on with humanities... not me! I am so far behind in that class its sick, another critical analysis for psych is coming up... I am especially not excited to write that, luckily he gives us two weeks...
I guess when I write it out it doesn't sound too bad... but I also have a crap ton of reading to do for all of those and not a whole lot of time to do it, yuck.
its times like these where I REALLY wish I could consume an unhealthy amount of caffeine to help me out... sometimes it seems unfair that I have to lull around in my natural mindset when everyone else is hopping around with coffees and energy drinks... panic disorder GO AWAY.
but while we're on the subject of that, mr. panic attack hasn't come to bite me in the ass as much as usual. He seems to have limited himself to mainly movie theaters, or hangovers... maybe the occassional marijuana usage... and I stress OCCASSIONAL (as meaning VERY few and far between). But for some reason he came back to get me this semester with a vengance after having been gone for almost 5 months...
It never fails to bother me even more that I'm a PSYCH major and I still can't keep it under control, even though I know its all in my head. I have a better grasp on it now but when they hit, they hit HARD... and nobody ever really seems to understand the terror I feel when they come. Its hard to think in a psychological way when You feel like your heart has stopped, you're whole body's cold, you're chest is aching, your ears are ringing, and your throught feels almost completely cut off of all air inhalation at all...
I just hope it goes away sometime soon... I want to SCREAM every time it comes. I hate myself for it.
anyway... after that fun little blog-er-ino. I have to head out to science lab... great.
ta ta.
whatever. lame. I'm done for now... I'll finish after science lab (I hope!)
in addition to all that stuff though... I have a take home test due on friday (shouldn't be TOOOO bad), a test in American Civ... which I'm getting a little afraid of... I Aced the first one, but I haven't been as on top of things as usual, who KNOWS whats going on with humanities... not me! I am so far behind in that class its sick, another critical analysis for psych is coming up... I am especially not excited to write that, luckily he gives us two weeks...
I guess when I write it out it doesn't sound too bad... but I also have a crap ton of reading to do for all of those and not a whole lot of time to do it, yuck.
its times like these where I REALLY wish I could consume an unhealthy amount of caffeine to help me out... sometimes it seems unfair that I have to lull around in my natural mindset when everyone else is hopping around with coffees and energy drinks... panic disorder GO AWAY.
but while we're on the subject of that, mr. panic attack hasn't come to bite me in the ass as much as usual. He seems to have limited himself to mainly movie theaters, or hangovers... maybe the occassional marijuana usage... and I stress OCCASSIONAL (as meaning VERY few and far between). But for some reason he came back to get me this semester with a vengance after having been gone for almost 5 months...
It never fails to bother me even more that I'm a PSYCH major and I still can't keep it under control, even though I know its all in my head. I have a better grasp on it now but when they hit, they hit HARD... and nobody ever really seems to understand the terror I feel when they come. Its hard to think in a psychological way when You feel like your heart has stopped, you're whole body's cold, you're chest is aching, your ears are ringing, and your throught feels almost completely cut off of all air inhalation at all...
I just hope it goes away sometime soon... I want to SCREAM every time it comes. I hate myself for it.
anyway... after that fun little blog-er-ino. I have to head out to science lab... great.
ta ta.
Monday, March 23, 2009
dear summer, its me, Laura.
wow. I decided I really like writing blogs. I did a few on myspace but I don't go on that site nearly enough to update it whenever I want... maybe this will be easier?
Spring Break has left me ITCHING for summer. It had to be an act of God that it was almost a perfect 60-70 degrees the ENTIRE week. Of course, as soon as Ryan and I got in the car to come back to school it started raining. Funny how that happens...
It WAS a great week. I didn't work at all... I need the money, but I also really needed a good relaxing break! I decided that it was okay because I'm only a freshman and don't TECHNICALLY need the money anyway... I have enough right now, I'm just used to a rather LARGE cushion of money. But the break was well worth it. It made me realize how much I missed my friends back home... very nostalgic. HOWEVER... I think it was all the drama I could take in one week;) its nice to come back here and have things be a little more quiet (minus the school work...) But it DID make me SO excited for summer, I can already tell that its going to be a BLAST... here is my list SO far...
camping with jordan, liz, joe, ...natalie kelsie and brandon too?
camping (AGAIN) with sami sue and I'm sure a few handfulls of the dubuque crew;)
adventureland with first said group
I saw that there was a "Iowa Idol" competition at the Iowa state fair, so I'm thinking maybe making a whole big trip out of the adventureland/fair thing
jenni texted me today askin me if I wanted to go canoeing... FUN.
tubing with leighann
finley's finley's finley's!!!! I'm sure there will be NUMEROUS trips to our favorite beach! :)
warped tour with jordan?
road trips
drunken nights
bonfires
ryan's birthday party
sami's birthday party
jake's birthday party.... yayyyy birthday parties!
and about a zillion other things
<333 I can hardly wait!
All of this is making it really hard to focus on school work :x
I just have to get through another month... then i'm safe! lets hope I make it that far! I've got a 3.8 gpa right now and I'd kindof like to keep it up there=]
Spring Break has left me ITCHING for summer. It had to be an act of God that it was almost a perfect 60-70 degrees the ENTIRE week. Of course, as soon as Ryan and I got in the car to come back to school it started raining. Funny how that happens...
It WAS a great week. I didn't work at all... I need the money, but I also really needed a good relaxing break! I decided that it was okay because I'm only a freshman and don't TECHNICALLY need the money anyway... I have enough right now, I'm just used to a rather LARGE cushion of money. But the break was well worth it. It made me realize how much I missed my friends back home... very nostalgic. HOWEVER... I think it was all the drama I could take in one week;) its nice to come back here and have things be a little more quiet (minus the school work...) But it DID make me SO excited for summer, I can already tell that its going to be a BLAST... here is my list SO far...
camping with jordan, liz, joe, ...natalie kelsie and brandon too?
camping (AGAIN) with sami sue and I'm sure a few handfulls of the dubuque crew;)
adventureland with first said group
I saw that there was a "Iowa Idol" competition at the Iowa state fair, so I'm thinking maybe making a whole big trip out of the adventureland/fair thing
jenni texted me today askin me if I wanted to go canoeing... FUN.
tubing with leighann
finley's finley's finley's!!!! I'm sure there will be NUMEROUS trips to our favorite beach! :)
warped tour with jordan?
road trips
drunken nights
bonfires
ryan's birthday party
sami's birthday party
jake's birthday party.... yayyyy birthday parties!
and about a zillion other things
<333 I can hardly wait!
All of this is making it really hard to focus on school work :x
I just have to get through another month... then i'm safe! lets hope I make it that far! I've got a 3.8 gpa right now and I'd kindof like to keep it up there=]
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