rah! I forgot all about blogging... I've been uber busy!

I'm extra exhausted... I've had so much homework today, I never have a break!

saw carol gilligan speak today... very intersting. It felt amazing to be in the presence of such an influential person. Makes me aspire to achieve what she has in psychology, though its doubtful.

Got in another fight with sami. More and more it seems like its hard to stay friends with someone like her... I've moved forward so much, and she seems to not move at all, which is sad. Its hard to watch such a good friend throw their life away, she focuses on that instant gratification, not on future consequences... maybe one day she'll learn. She's academically even smarter than me, if she'd only apply her skills and have a little ambition she could go places...

we can only hope.

But I can't afford to surround myself with that anymore, it makes me feel so sad for them... no matter what I say she doesn't listen, she'll always do her own thing.

I know she hears me and it all sinks in... she just doesn't want to let go of her pride.

maybe when I have my PhD she'll take me seriously;) haha.

I just can't wait to get to that point in my life where I can help people like her succeed, I'll always be chasing that satisfaction, she'll always be in the back of my mind.
The most rewarding feeling for me is creating a positive change in someone's life, or giving them the skills, knowledge, and that extra push to turn their lives around...


however its always a little bittersweet when she has these moments of breakdown... it sounds terrible but not having to deal with her for a while is nice, her life is one big world of stress... I think my blood pressure rises when I have to deal with her, haha. But her being my last source of adolescent drama, its nice to not have to hear about it for a while... as terrible as that sounds.

I'm not a bad friend, I swear... haha.

but it wouldn't be right of me to support her bad decisions, she knows that... somewhere inside of her I KNOW she knows that. she's really not as dumb as she likes to come off.



anyway... thats the current dramz.... there's really much more going on, but quite frankly I'm a little tired and its nice to vent on the negative =] but the positive far outweights in my life these days.... I am blessed!

until my next blurrrb. I'm off to get ready to go out! only two more weekends left!!!


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